I know you're scared. I am too.
I'm terrified of everything. I'm terrified of this. Of how I feel.
Scared I'll get hurt. Scared to trust you. Scared to let go. Scared to let you in.
We go in circles. We always end up where we are right now.
Always.
It's become a futile battle, and I don't know why we fight it.
I don't know why we don't suck it up and admit we're both wrong.
That we both screwed up. Because we did.
I did. You did.
Mine wasn't as drastic as yours, but I did.
I can see that now.

(Baby, what are we becoming
Feels just like we're always running
Going through the motions every day)

I needed time to think. I needed to figure everything out and I needed to have time to myself. I should've just told you that, but I'm not that clever.
We should've just sat down and talked about it. We should've talked about it before it ever went this far. That far.
We've had our ups and downs, and our rock bottom crash, but you know as well as I do that isn't us.
That isn't you.
That's never been you.
You've had your moments, but that was never you. Never.

(I could lean in to hold you
Or act like I don't even know you
Seems like you could care less either way)

It's fair to say that we've both got problems. We've both got things we need to work on and I know that, too. But no matter what was portrayed, I know you loved me. I know you did.
And you know I did, too. With everything I had.
With everything I have.
I had moments and you did too, and we let them get out of control. We let them grow and turn into bitterness and never said a word until it all bubbled over, and tore us down.

(What happened to that girl I used to know
I just want us back to the way we were before)

I miss the way we use to be. I do. I miss it all.
I hope I get to see you tomorrow.
I want to feel you here again.
Near me. Beside me. With me.
Not a faint whisper.
We'll make it through this, we always do.
But I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that this is it.
This is it.
No more options, this is it.
No more chances, no more 'I Didn't Mean It's.
We're both on the edge, and we're both afraid to jump as it stands.

(Do I turn you on at all when I kiss you, baby
Does the sight of me wanting you drive you crazy
Do I have your love
Am I still enough
Tell me, don't I
Or tell me, do I, baby
Give you everything that you ever wanted
Would you rather just turn away and leave me lonely
Do I just need to give up and get on with my life
Baby, do I)

The last thing I want is to walk away from you.
The last thing I want is to just give up.
We have something, something very special that I'm not sure I could find in someone else.
Not like I have it with you.
You know so many things about me, even the horrible things, and you still love me at the end of the day.
You loved me when I was at my best, and my worst.
You love me when I've gotten dressed up for you, but you love me even more when I wake up next to you in the morning and my hair's sticking up everywhere.
You loved that part of me the most; the part that nobody else sees.
You loved me when I was sick.
You did everything you could that day to make me feel better, down to driving around with the heater on sweating your ass off just to try and break my fever.
You did those things.
You loved me.
When it came down to it, when it really mattered, you loved me.
I can see that now.

(Remember when we didn't have nothing
But a perfect simple kind of loving
Baby those sure were the days
There was a time when our love ran wild and free
But now I'm second guessing everything I see)

You're my whole world, even to this day.
Do you realize how big that is?
Since we were 14 years old, it was always you.
Where does the time go?
Here we are, me 17 and you closing in on 18.
And it's still you.
It's still me.
It's still us doing the same damn thing we were then.
Fighting the inevitable.
When will we ever learn?

(Do I turn you on at all when I kiss you, baby
Does the sight of me wanting you drive you crazy
Do I have your love
Am I still enough
Tell me, don't I
Or tell me, do I, baby
Give you everything that you ever wanted
Would you rather just turn away and leave me lonely
Do I just need to give up and get on with my life
Baby, do I
Still give you what you need
Still take your breath away
Or light up the spark way down deep, baby do I)

Every time you touch me, love, even now, even after all these years. Every single time.